Creative Imprisonment

If I write a poem of desire
There is moral policing
Search warrant for the source.
If I write a poem of renunciation
There are prescriptions for aphrodisiac.
Some prisons have eyes in every wall.
Ears in every window.
Tongues in the floor that wag with out a bone.
Alphabet does not block the flood gates.
There is a word for every form of harassment.
This is a prison that has abundant air inside.
I breathe air that has no color.
No boundaries.

PURE HEAT

Those corridors of my mind
Remain tightly shut
As I open the doors of
various rooms
Explorer in my own house
Fear had different hues
Darkness was a solace from hurting light
The floor was always a reality
At times springing a surprised flower
Like laughter that was more contagious
than a yawn
Sky was often visible
Sometimes like a childhood I forgot
At times desperate for mother’s lap
A troubled conscience like a father
lost with out a map.
Not knowing who was guilty nor the
definition of crime.
A sister I almost lost on a giant wheel
A God stayed immovable like
a book full of knowledge, waiting to be read.
Those corridors of my mind may open one of these
days , like a bird who breaks her cage
And sets a trail of flames that are purely hot..

A TIE

What is more real
that which happens
knowing that you will see
Or that which happens
despite knowing
you may never see
What is more blind
the way I saw all your
assaults as frantic efforts
to hear me cry out your name
or the way you did not
see all my escapes
as frantic efforts to stop
a natural force
What is more blind
Love or hate?
What ties you forever?
Love or hate?
I untied the knot; I was free when I loved
I have little experience with getting over hatred

Small wonder

I did not fall in love I was rising from underground
I had nothing left to lose , then I found myself
It was not because you were the last man on earth
It was because you were the first man who understood more than my kith and kin
Best things about me was unsaid, I realized it as you strained to hear the silence
We had mirror neurons in common ,synapse was like fission
You drop your eyes when you know you are wrong , I do that when I am shy
I confess, it was scary to be understood …devastating to be misunderstood
We both were attracted to pain , small wonder we are not together.
Does it matter to you at all ?

EVIDENCE

The accused collects it
to hide his guilt
The innocent collects it
to prove her innocence
Obviously they don’t tally
If the crime scene is her body
It cannot be wrapped with
yellow sticky tapes
Witness cannot get in
Without scratching
Or grease.
Any ways you can always
lie back and think of England
or India
If there is no bread you can eat
cake, revolutions happen like that .
In all countries nice women are
asked to keep secrets
lesser women scream
some others write poetry
and tear the paper.

COUNT DOWN

“To  get irritated , is to lose our way in life – Haruki Murakami in Wild sheep chase”

I won’t be another number

In your case file

OP number  or IP number

Lucky or unlucky number

Your favorite number on FM Radio

Your correct number of shoe size

An old telephone number

sadly out of date with less

number of digits

Don’t add  me to your feathers

in the caps or pillows  or

Minus me from your accounts

That do not tally

Don’t count the number

of hours I made you wait

Make it years or lives

Does it matter ?

Love does not keep accounts

I don’t count

I don’t really count…………….

NOT AFRAID OF DEATH

Afraid of working 24X 7

yet not helping  another to live

instead hear he died at his own

hands…….

 

Afraid of loving a man

who may see me as an investment

not paying the expected dividend

or as a photograph that

got folded in all the wrong corners

 

I am afraid

To live in a house with

a mirror with out a reflection

An opaque surface where nothing

Is impressed.

I am afraid of preferring to talk

to a stone than a man one day

 

I am afraid of thinking Intuition

is just a random choice

Not a gift of God.

 

I am afraid of sending e-mails to

my self , hoping to be understood

By a thief who will be interested

enough to break genuine friendships

But will never offer me company

 

I am afraid of getting addicted

to a routine with consistent

sparks of creativity helping

others , fooling my self to think

I am making a difference or

I am not like disposable

contact lens that never is worn

to sleep..

 

I am not afraid of drama

I am merely afraid of calling it a

reality  since I believe it as a reality

 

I am not afraid of death

I am afraid of dying

 

Dying life

Like mortals

Living death

Like immortals